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moved
back to blogger.
screamsatyou.blogspot.com
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my fault.
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2 down
‘m really exhausted after staying up till late night to do readings for all the common tests. Despite doing ample revisions, i still blank out during chem paper because I was too nervous and on top of that, I was very careless while during biology paper and I was crapping throughout econs test. ):
Had our ‘A’ level Project Work result this afternoon and I’m glad that our whole class aced that subject and be the part of 87% of the cohort who scored distinctions. celebration on wednesday.
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210 days
JC is never like secondary school. In less than 24 hours, I will be having my Biology test. The next day would be Chemistry test and I will end off the week with an Economics test. In 76 days time, I will be sitting for my Mid Year Papers. 210 days from today, it will be the major thing. The big A. Like wow, time flies. I have an average of 42 days to study for each subject before my major papers. 42 days for more than 20 chapters of chemistry, 42 days for more than 16 chapters of math, 42 days to familiarize with endless GP topics, 42 days to memorise more than 7 chapters of biology, each with at least 30 pages long, and lastly, 42 days to study for 2 books of Economics and make sure that all the limitations, diagrams and theories are at my finger tip. I am overwhelm by extremely high stress level. I can now put to use the emotional first aid skills I’ve learnt last time.
Going through this emotional roller coaster of a combination of nervousness, frustrations and fuming rage.
Do not, ask me about every single thing. Do not, tell me you understand me. Do not, console me by telling me there’s still time. Do not, say sorry. Do not, tell me you will try to understand me. Do not, say you will put yourself in my shoes and think for me. Do not, say that you’ve failed. Do not, tell me you love me. Do not, try to do something. Do not, comment on anything. You do need to leave me alone.
DO NOT ASSUME THAT I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU.
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Sausage Mcmuffin with egg (Y)
I am dead tired because of CT meeting early in the morning. Changed after meeting, pop by Mcdonald for a burger to fill my stomach up and trained down to somerset for SCS roadshow. I must say, road show was a success with awesome people like Dylan and friend, who have an edge over others because they can speak so well and approach strangers without hesitation. Of course, they had the highest number of people agreeing to stand up to speak for a social cause :) Gladys and Cz did a good job too :)
Roadshow ended close to 4.30p.m and we had free lunch sponsored by i-don-know-who. haha. anyway, late lunch was filling and tasty :) trained home alone after accounting for everything.
Lastly, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY BESTIE QUEK! i hope you enjoyed your day :)\
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Macdonald makes me fat
Life is horribly peaceful this week. I was probably missing Mrs Tan’s nags on late coming and absent without valid reason that I totally forgot to tap in today. So I am ‘absent’ from school and without having a valid reason and hence, I need to do CWO. (scroll down to see how much I complained about CWO in one of my posts.) I actually remembered that I didn’t tap in at about 11a.m this morning and was pretty confident that I will run to tap in later since CZ said that it’s better to be late than ‘absent’. Right after GP lecture, it totally slipped my mind that I need to tap in. I just remembered. wa lao eh, i don’t care. I am not going for CWO. hate hate hate hate.
Skipped all judo training this week because I am totally not in the mood to sit there and stone or to train. tsk. I am becoming fatter ):
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Books are good for you
I love Week A. Had a ‘long’ weekend yet I was enjoying myself fully (: Didn’t touch the books much. Good Friday was spent with boyfriend because Eng Seng stood me up ): Plus today was having fun day because Jason came over and I was entertaining half the time.
I promise I will work hard during school days (:
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I AM BEING SENSITIVE. YES. TELL ME I AM.
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Motivation
Finally, NAPFA test is out of my life. Can’t be more happy than that. At least, for now, I don’t have to run like mad, except for PT. School was awesome today, apart from that annoying chem lecturer who speaks monotonously. Totally irritated by not only her, but also that very talkative and disturbing student council sitting behind my class. I could have turn over and slap his face hard or at least scream in his face if not that I was sitting one row in front of him. pissed. tsk. thinking that he rules the school, jerk.
Okay, anyway, when i mean school is awesome, I mean the after dismissal time. That means having food and then sitting at the grandstand with wind blowing and talking/mugging with friends. Although the wind came in too strongly and the rain became bigger. So yes, I diligently did the Econs homework I owe and then home sweet home (:
Curry fish head tonight was really finger-licking-good. Dad and I were fighting over food. hah.
Ok, bear with me for the wordy posts nowdays. tumblr’s photo uploading isn’t working right now ):
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Bad Day
First day of school nearly killed me although i remained pretty calm throughout the day. I was first greeted with Corrective Work Order (CWO) slapped in my face because I missed school last term and I didn’t had a valid reason according to that annoying CT of mine. So yes, I must be down for it on Wednesday before I get myself into deeper trouble and trust me, my CT will never ever let me go because she is so persistent on certain things that get on your nerves and she likes to gloat over misfortune and laugh at her not very funny joke. In fact, she likes to laugh at what she says. tsk.
Second thing that sent me nearly hitting the roof (okay, I am not that tall): There’s math supplement class tmr. Ok lah, to make it sound nicer, it’s supplement class. To make it sound bad, it’s remedial lesson and holy shit, it’s like in the late afternoon till 5p.m. *pouts.
Third BAD thing: I don’t have MP3 to accompany me today because I don’t have ear piece ):
Headed to judo after school although I didn’t train today. Basically, it’s randori for the competitors fighting for a place in A division while CZ and me sat there and did our work. Some really unexpected people got into the A div and some whom I thought had the potential was left out. Oh well, no luck. Then again, I think A div is a totally useless event because you know where you stand and if you know you are not up to standard and that you are chosen, don’t gloat over it. you might just get thrash within seconds and there! you failed to retain the little pride that you have in yourself. I sound mean, but it’s the fact no? would you be glad going up on stage to get a medal that you didn’t fight for. So not glamorous please. So Jia Chern, please cheer up.
And tomorrow is the start of hell day number 2. ): I shall hang in there and conquer math! Oh ): School is gonna end late again.
Good luck for peeps having organic chem test tmr! (that include myself) and I need lots of luck!
